Thursday, January 23, 2014

Dear 2013,

I am sitting here 3 weeks into January 2014 and feeling immensely guilty on my lack of documentation for almost the entire year of 2013. I dropped the ball. 2013 was a good year full of lots of firsts, that I being the horrible mom I am did not sit down and write about. I am repenting of that now. Not that anyone is reading this but when I am dead I can rest in piece that I documented this little families life, and I can sleep at night knowing that I am trying my best at journaling.

So 2013 sorry I will go finish the last 9 months and document highlights of the months. Sorry for the neglect and hate...

To 2014, I AM BACK! One of my many new years resolutions is to get back into blogging. It's for my future so when I look back 20 years from now I can know how CRAZY it is to raise kids, be a mom, be a wife, have an intense church calling, clean, cook, entertain, be a good friend....the list goes on and on but I can remember I did it and I survived and I love almost every minute of it.

So dear readers get excited because the Harris family is alive and well and growing! Get ready for real life moments and real mothering moments, because you guys know me I don't sugar coat the craziness of my life. I like to keep it real because there is no use reading a blog that makes you feel like your doing it all wrong, or that your life is not as glamours, adventures, or perfect as everyone else's. Heck I rarely spell check this baby ;)  That is one thing 2013 taught me. I'm okay with who I am, and I can handle a lot more then I thought.

2014 is going to be a great year, can't wait to document it, check back soon!

Sunday, April 14, 2013

March Killed Us...

March has been a rough one...and yes I know its like 2 weeks into April. A plague  of teething, barfing, pooping, snot, and ALOT of crying has entered into our house. It has taken every bit of sanity from me. My house is a disaster zone...really a big bottle of bleach needs to put dumped 5 times over. 

Literally just yesterday while I was changing a watering disaster of a diaper of Max's, I look over and Noah smiles then pukes right next to me. 

Theses are the things I am talking much much grossness..

On top of it all the teething is just nonstop crying, drooling, nose running mess. And guess what?? not one single tooth has emerged from Noahs mouth!! 

This weekend really put the cherry on top with Larry taking a weekend long class, meaning I was in the trenches solo. 

OKAY but besides all that, some great stuff did happen. We had some best friends come and visit which I will blog about soon. Noah turned one (we did nothing) and there was some rare snuggling moments form both of the boys. 

Lets hope this next week brings us to and end of the 2013 plague of death. 

Here is some cute pictures of my boys on a happy moment I got to capture. Oh man I love them.  

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Noah One Year Later

My baby Noah celebrated his 1st birthday 2 weeks ago. I find it fitting that I am just now documenting it,  poor second child. We really didn't celebrate being that everyone has been so sick. But luckily a week before I was lucky enough to get a 1st year shoot of him.

What can I say about this last year? Getting pregnant with Noah was a surprise being that it was weeks after Max turned 1, but little did I know he so needed to come to our family sooner rather then later. He really has been such a joy to have, and seeing him and Max interact these last few months, and especially when he stared to walk has made the surprise even sweeter.

He is almost walking, very smiley, and finally sleeping 12 hours a night! He loves his pacifiers which is nice after having Max not take them, and he loves sitting forward facing in the car. He is the sweetest, cuddliest, animal loving boy out there. I feel a bit bad his life hasn't been documented as much as Max's BUT I have been busy living everyday in the moment taking care of these sweet brothers. I am overwhelmed with love and joy that even though it is hard I get to stay home everyday with them. I feel so lucky, and I hope years from now they will too. I can't wait to see what the next year brings for Noah. I am sure he will quickly be running after his brother and establishing his personality and place in our little family. Happy 1st birthday Noah! 


Thursday, March 14, 2013

Beware: Really Sappy Mommy Post...

This last week has been pretty amazing I have to say. I have done nothing except play and be with my boys all week. I know I know...I am a stay at home mom I should do that everyday. But in reality I don't. This week I did nothing but play with Max and Noah. We went to the park every day, we played outside for hours, we sang songs, had picnics, played in the Teepee. We took lots of baths, and played in the water out side. Whatever Max wanted to play, Noah and I were right beside him. We read extra stories, and played with friends.

Did my house get extra dirty...yes. And yes there is a pile of laundry that needs to be done, but man alive my boys were so happy. I didn't drag them to any stores, or run any errands, I didn't chat of the phone with friends, or get on the computer if I had a free second. And honestly I haven't felt this appreciated, and exhausted in a long time.

I usually always take them to the park, and play with them but this week has been so different. I tried not to say, just a second Max...or give mommy 5 minutes. I was there and present. I listen to all the funny things he had to say. I taught him some planet names...because he is so into rockets and space right now. I tried teaching Noah how to blow kisses, and get him to walk a few steps!! And I just soaked up all their little kisses and hugs. Their fat little feet, and their bellies sticking out of the shirts. I didn't mind them crawling and jumping all over me. Every time they ran or crawled by I gave them kisses and told them how loved they were.

Tonight as I lay with Max in the bed after a long sunny day of playing I realized how amazing it is to feel your very active little boys body go limp next to you as he falls asleep and drifts off to dream land. It was such a peaceful moment, his soft rhythmic breathing, the primary songs quietly playing, and I knew he was happy, and cared for and that is what being a mother is all about.

I know that there are so many children out in the world, that are not as well cared for. It breaks my heart when my mom, who is a teacher tells me stories about kids at her school who's parents treat them horrible. To me going to the park or zoo is so normal. To me having warm baths, clean jammies and brushing teeth is so normal. I am reminded daily how lucky I am to be able to do these things with my kids. I feel so blessed that I am able to stay at home with them, to give them the normal, loving, cared for life that they deserve.

I never knew how little I would care about my needs once I became a mom. I rarely look in the mirror after I get ready for the day. I rarely think about the things I need or want. It is all about them, and that is okay, because that is how it is suppose to be. I am more then happy to give my boys everything they need or give them fun opportunities before wasting it on myself.

When Max says "I love you mommy" that is seriously the best words in the world. When Noah hears my voice and franticly crawls to me for a hug it makes me feel so love. When my husband who works so hard so I can stay home, comes home and asks what he can do for me...I know I am a blessed woman.

There are hard have read about them. Not everything is always rosy. There are fights (loud ones) there is a lot of tears from kids and parents. There is days where I worry sick about staying poor law students and having just one income. There are days when I think we are crazy to think we can succeed in this harsh world. But that is the beauty of life. This is what working towards eternal progression is all about...working together through the good and the bad as an eternal family.

I love my family...even when I hate them.

I am blessed...

and I love when I get to be this sappy mommy :)

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Oldies, But Goodies...

Most days I am in super mom mode till about 4 o' clock. The boys are up from naps, it is time to start dinner, everyone is a bit cranky and even a diet coke won't fix the afternoon lull. Does anyone else have that problem? I look at the clock and I swear it has been 2 hours but it laughs at me and has only been like 2 minutes  One day I had a genius idea to stick Noah in the sink while he was fussy and let him play while I stared fixing dinner. Max quickly stripped down and demanded to join. Both of them are way to big for sink baths, but it killed a good 45 minutes and everyone was happy! 

Now anytime someone is fussy or cranky I striped them down and stick them in the sink for awhile. It works wonders and the time flies by. I'm super grateful for small things like this that can get me through the day. Most of the time I have to hunker down till about 10pm when Larry gets home so anything to make all 3 of us happy that doesn't involve candy or TV is a win in my book! 

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

The Glamorous Life Of A Stay At Home Mom.

Both my boys are naping right is amazing. 

Noah had a lovely ear infection last week, I found out on my birthday
 (FYI birthdays with kids SO different) 

Larry not only has his normal classes this week but also Friday night, and All day Saturday & Sunday. 

I have to teach Relief Society on Sunday...where is screaming Noah going to go?? 

Sometimes when they boys are asleep the last thing I want to do is clean, so I tell myself I will do it later and zone out infront of the TV (does a mom good) 

I have created a 3 point plan to get rid of ALL bottle in our house, potty train Max, and get the boys in the same room. My goal is by August this is complete...haha insert Max stroking his bottle and saying no mommy I love my baba. 

One of my favorite times of the day is putting Max to sleep. We lay on his bed listening to primary music, with his toddler body nestled up to me it is heaven. I love the smell of him and his tiny snores. Oh how big he is getting, it hurts my heart every time I see him doing a big boy thing. 

With Noah turning one, I contemplate when we get to have another sweet baby around...Larry has a full year of law school left and the bar to take. Every time I think about it I get irrationally sad. Trying to balance fiscal responsibility with my crazy need to reproduce is a bit hard. 

I made a goal to drink less diet coke...then it went major on sale and quickly forgot about said goal. 

I also told Larry I could stay out of Target for an entire week! I have been Target free for 4 we think I can make it :) 

Lastly I have decided that have one baby is amazing...but having 2 is over the top. Seeing Max and Noah interact with each other makes my heart want to burst. I know it is sappy but honestly, when I see them make each other laugh or Max share with Noah is makes me know to my very core how worth it  is to have these boys. And what a blessing it is! Despite the messes, and fights, my boys are so sweet and loving most of the time it makes up for me doing this parenting thing by myself (most of the time) totally worth it.

Couldn't you just eat this baby alive? 

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Do I still have a blog?? & Happy 26th to me!

Wow, I haven't been on this dusty blog in over 2 months....that is a long time for me. I don't know what happened, I got busy. I also felt like if I had a free moment that last thing I wanted to do was blog. Because really who is reading this. Lets just say these last 2 months I personally have been busy reevaluating my life, losing all faith in humanity, having a small criss of faith,deciding if I should have another baby, contemplating taking a job as a home health nurse, and giving my poor husband a run for  his money.

Here is small update of our lives

LARRY- Still works a billion hours a week and goes to school just as much. He took a weekend health law class that he liked a lot, and I think might be really nudging his career post law school as a health law lawyer. OH he also BROKE HIS ARM. Sweet right? My almost 30 year old husband broke his arm about 2 weeks ago while skate boarding. Yes, you did read that right. His friends and him go to the skate park every saturday morning and hang with a bunch of teenagers trying to relive their youth (my words not his) His Dr. said this is a common break for 30-40 year olds and he better feel lucky he didn't need surgery  He is getting better and just got the okay to be able to just wear a sling, hurray for me because I was he wasn't able to carry kids.

MAX- oh my sweet Max. I could go on forever about this boy. He is 2 1/2 years old and is finally talking a ton. His vocabulary has really expanded and he speaks in clear long sentences. He does the funniest stuff. He loves cars, dump trucks, balls, and Dora. If he could live at the park he would. He is becoming a good little helper with Noah, and we have been working on cleaning skills and getting himself dressed. We are contemplating potty training but not yet because he still loves his bottle :) He makes me laugh everyday with his references to cow boys, and rocket ships. He has a good memory and picks things up fast. He also has a vivid imagination and talks about wolfs and bears often while we play in his teepee. He loves the nights when Larry is home and can read him his favorite story Where The Wild Things Are...he knows most of the lines, and only lets Dad read it to him.  This stage is really great albiet sometimes very trying with my patines because he thinks he can do everything by himself. I love his imagination and his complete love and trust in me.

NOAH- this baby has really changed in these last 2 months. He is now 11 months old and while currently sick and grumpy is typically so smiley and wild. He is a tank, and can crawl and climb over everything. He is a determined little guy. He is not walking yet, but is starting to really one hand everything when he walks beside the couch, and chairs. He has 8 teeth and loves to use them! He is a biter, and he thinks it's the funniest thing ever to bite. His favorite victim is sadly Max. We are working on it :) He eats everything in sight, and then some. He takes a binkie which is amazing and sleeps with that. He is a good napper and has finally started sleeping 12 hours straight a night. He is not cuddly at all but loves to get ticked and get kisses. He loves his brother and follows him everywhere. He loves taking baths and would sit in them forever. He also really loves climbing the stairs he goes up them a million times a day and I have to go up and get him because he doesn't know how to get down and just sits and yells at the top until I get him.

ME-I've been in a small funk lately just doing the same old routine, but I really can't complain. Being a mom is the best thing and taking care of these sweet boys is usually always great. Really there are days that make me want to cry but MOST of them are really great. I am looking forward to some consistent warm weather and many days at the park and pool. I have been regularly working out which is really good, and have finally decied to go to bed early! It helps my moods and my patients if I just sleep, instead of trying to clean more or get some me time in.

So that is the update on us. I really do love blogging and will get back at it. I need to really document Noah's 9,10,11 months. Poor second child I am already slacking. So dear readers, if you are out there...keep checking back. I think I am back :)

PS. It is my 26th Birthday today! on the 26th!! I am taking care of a sick baby and Larry has work and law school...with things ever change??