pitty party

Warning this is nothing but complaining:

Does anyone ever feel like...why can't I just be grateful I am alive and healthy. After having a challenging week, I swear Heavenly Father has it in for me sometimes. I know we are here to have challenges and overcome them, but sometimes I feel like I can only take so much. I know there are people out there that have had way more challenges then I have but I feel at the moment the walls are coming in on me and I am helpless to the situations that are being thrown at me. I mean really why can't I seem to be happy? I feel lost and a little bit like what is the point??

I wrote that yesterday, today at church the elders quorum talked about FAITH...I am pretty sure it is a tender mercy and Heavenly Father saying to me...don't give up.

I love my baby but...

I CAN'T BREATH!!!

AHHHHH

Mothers Day 2010.

Happy Mothers day!!

To my amazing mother who puts up with me almost daily even though I live 700 miles away and bravely gave birth to me, her only daughter, in a car.

"President David O. McKay put it beautifully when he said, speaking of mothers, 'This ability and willingness properly to rear children, the gift to love, and eagerness, yes, longing to express it in soul development, make motherhood the noblest office or calling in the world. . .'

Exhausted these days..

I'm overwhelmed by the thought of packing up our house. I need to start now because doing it with a newborn is not going to work for me. The problem is I am so tired these days. With only weeks left till his arrival I get exhausted doing the smallest things sometimes...like laundry and cooking. I am glad my mom is coming soon, hopefully she can help me kick it into gear and pack up as much things that we don't need in the next month or two.

Highlights of life right now:

* We are both working = two pay checks = Amazing:)
* Last check up the baby weighed 3 pounds 11 ounces and looked perfect.
* Baby is breached right now with hands and feet up by his head, funny baby needs to flip soon!
* Parents are coming in a couple of weeks for another visit
* David gets his mission call soon, and we get to talk to John tomorrow!


Things are good with us for the most part. We are blessed. Larry is happy to be done with school for a couple of months before his first semester of law school. He is enjoying staying up late and playing video games which he never gets to do during the school year. I am good, feeling very BIG and tired. I am hopefully taking my nursing state boards in a couple of weeks and cross my fingers will pass before we leave the state and the baby is born. Overall I am in total shock we will be parents soon and am really excited to see what he looks like when he comes out!

32 Weeks Later:

Here I am 32 weeks pregnant in all my glory. Feeling okay :) Really its great overall. Feeling kicks and baby shifting lots. Its all good around here happy and want to see this baby boy soon! I need to remember he will come and I need to take advantage of these last few weeks with Larry. I can't wait for him to be a dad he will be amazing its going to be the best adventure.