Happy little moments

I think the funniest thing about being pregnant is watching your belly move when your baby is on a kicking spree. It makes me laugh every time.

Why I got married at 20:

"An eternal marriage is eternal. Eternal implies continuing growth and improvement. It means that man and wife will honestly try to perfect themselves. It means that the marriage relationship is not to be frivolously discarded at the first sign of disagreement or when times get hard. It signifies that love will grow stronger with time and that it extends beyond the grave. It means that each partner will be blessed with the company of the other partner forever and that problems and differences might as well be resolved because they are not going to go away. Eternal signifies repentance, forgiveness, long-suffering, patience, hope, charity, love, and humility. All of these things are involved in anything that is eternal, and surely we must learn and practice them if we intend to claim an eternal
marriage."

tuesday afternoon confession:

I've been up since 4:00am
Tuesdays usually aren't my days.
Its been rough around here needless to say. I am way hormonal and am too stressed out about life this is how my brain works...

we need things for the baby...
that costs money...
we have no money...
we have to put down law school deposits in 2 weeks...
law school...
moving far away....
debt...
A LOT of debt...
the prophet says it is okay...
the prophet says don't put off having kids...
our baby is coming soon...
I get to quit my job...
but that provides money..
we have none without the job..
are we making right choices....
sometimes agency sucks...

This is the cycle of death and is constantly on my mind. I try not to let it control my mood but man it hard! I know everyone is dieing to see where we move to law school.. So am I! I will keep you all updated because I know I have so many devoted followers to this blog :)

Happy Tuesday to you all
may your day be brighter than mine!

sunshine...

This is the view from my room, or old room I guess. I am back in Utah, and as we drove into the salt lake valley on Thursday evening tears came flowing uncontrollably from me as the sky was gray, gloomy, and rainy. I am struggling being back and miss my warm 75 degree beautiful El Dorado Hills. It was a quick trip with baby shower, sewing, eating home made bread, and lots of naps. I love being home (I still consider Ca. my "home") and have a hard time getting back to our normal day to day life back in good ol' Weber county Utah.

The sun helps me {A LOT}

I got lots of fun baby clothes and things for baby boy and lots of comments on how small I still am. I have mixed emotions on that end, because to me I am BIG but coming up on 27 weeks I am not measuring up :) He will just be a small baby, I mean hello there is no way I can push out a 9 pound baby, have you seen my frame!? Overall California was perfect, not long enough but perfect and warm.

I am counting down the days till I return, probably with a sweet baby boy in Larry's back pocket.

Dear job...please die

I am seriously hating my job today and I want it to be over!

can I quit today??

tomorrow?

i dunno if I'm gunna make it till June

Larry applied to be a court clerk so I'm praying he gets that job and I will be able to discontinue mine, really its for my sanity and the thought that I want to kill everyone I come into contact with on a daily basis really is not helping my home life because Larry gets the pleasure of hearing all about it!! AGGGGGGGGGGG(This is the pregnancy talking)


just breath because in 24 hours I will be in California and all will be well.

Home sweet home

I will be in California in 4 days!!!

It better be sunny and warm and amazing!!!

Pictures and bloggity blogging to come!!!

Keeping the spark alive.

In the spirit of our upstairs neighbors constantly yelling and screaming at each other, I am trying to constantly figure out how to tune them out and remind my husband how much I love and appreciate him because I never want to get to the point where are neighbors are right now in our marriage...its scary and uncomfortable to listen to them. And no we are not trying to, I'm sure others around can here as well, they make me sad.

So here are 10 silly reasons I am glad Larry is my eternal companion:

1. He watches the weirdest things on TV and has a weird fascination with boring history channel shows.
2. He times getting out of bed to the second, literally won't get out of be a minute before he has to.
3. Never ever yells at his wife
4. Shows everyone pictures of his baby
5. Listens to Harry Potter with me
6. Rubs my back at 3 am if I ask
7. wakes up early to write papers
8. falls asleep during sacrament meeting and then points out the other 20 men doing the same thing when I scold him.
9. Does the dishes...that is his duty as a husband
10. the back of his hair usually always sticks up no matter what he tires to do to make it stay down.

So to all you happy couples out there keep being happy and don't scream like our neighbors do because its not good for anyone especially when you wake up a pregnant women in the middle of the night!

fat fat fat

I can't fit into my clothes anymore

well not without looking like i have a gut

I am having an identity crisis and major clothes depression

Larry says if he was pregnant he wouldn't care what he wore and that he would wear sweats all day long..umm yeah that might be me soon enough.